July262014

I really do think there’s something wrong with me. It hits me at different times that I don’t feel like I’m actually in the real life, like I’m an outsider looking in. I’ll make a decision up in my mind and my body doesn’t answer the way I want it to.

July202014
1AM

Lately I’ve been feeling disconnected and I’m not even sure exactly what I mean by that. I’ve found myself talking aloud in the car almost as if I have to guide myself into completing the actions I’ve started. The best way I really can describe is that I’m feeling dissociated. I don’t feel things the way normal people should I don’t have any plans I’m reckless and my behavior has been crazy and irrational lately. I’ve noticed this happens whenever I’m emotionally invested with someone I lose my grip on my reality because their behavior begins to dictate my behavior. I just don’t know what’s happening to me I feel like a stranger in my body sometimes doing things I don’t know why I did and without having a plan for the future I don’t know what I’m going to do. I know I need to talk with my therapist and my medication doctor but I just don’t think a nurse practitioner and a women who’s only advice is to “self soothe” can help with what’s going on here. I don’t even feel alive sometimes

June202014

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12AM
“And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.” Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via feellng)

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June192014
weedporndaily:

Thousands of Rapists Are Not Behind Bars Because Cops Focus on Marijuana Users
(DrugPolicy) A piece in the Washington Post highlights the growing backlog of untested rape test kits that are sitting in police storage units while rapists run free and victims suffer. Missing from the story, however, is one of the biggest contributors to this backlog, the enormous amount of police and tax resources spent targeting drug crimes, particularly marijuana possession.
The backlog is a disgrace. The total number of rape test kits that have never been sent to laboratories for testing exceeds 100,000. In some cases, the kits have been sitting in storage for decades. From the Washington Post:
“In 2009, authorities found more than 11,000 unprocessed kits at the Detroit crime lab after it was closed for improperly handling weapons evidence. After testing the first 2,000 kits, authorities identified 127 serial rapists and made 473 matches overall to known convicts or arrestees, or to unknown people whose genetic material was found at crime scenes.”
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weedporndaily:

Thousands of Rapists Are Not Behind Bars Because Cops Focus on Marijuana Users

(DrugPolicy) A piece in the Washington Post highlights the growing backlog of untested rape test kits that are sitting in police storage units while rapists run free and victims suffer. Missing from the story, however, is one of the biggest contributors to this backlog, the enormous amount of police and tax resources spent targeting drug crimes, particularly marijuana possession.

The backlog is a disgrace. The total number of rape test kits that have never been sent to laboratories for testing exceeds 100,000. In some cases, the kits have been sitting in storage for decades. From the Washington Post:

“In 2009, authorities found more than 11,000 unprocessed kits at the Detroit crime lab after it was closed for improperly handling weapons evidence. After testing the first 2,000 kits, authorities identified 127 serial rapists and made 473 matches overall to known convicts or arrestees, or to unknown people whose genetic material was found at crime scenes.”

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June182014

Mi Amor

Lying next to you,
listening to your breathing
I fell asleep wrapped into
you, and I was safe.
For the first time,
I saw a white dress
and red lips.
A ring and then
As I slept I heard..
The pitter-patter of tiny
feet in my dreams.
Then I saw
The basinet next to
the bed for us.
I hear laughter and
see the future;
impossible without
our love to pay
our dues.
I want a future with you.
But then I wake up
and I’m scared
I may hear the pitter patter
of tiny feet
In a bed without
you next to me.
My life is not much
without you in it.
And I may be alone with
something I can’t handle

June92014
3PM
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3PM
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